Yes, it has been quite an eventful journey and it's time to take a break. Tomorrow's Good Friday Service will be my last service with Gen8sis. I remembered many years back when I was with the Choir, I did my first solo during the Good Friday Service and tomorrow will be my last day in the worship team.
Thank GOD for the opportunity to serve Him in the worship ministry since October 2004. Exactly 7 1/2 years. I hope He is pleased with my service these few years and now it's the season of life that I take a break but I will by His grace, continue to worship Him with all my heart, soul, mind and strength because He has created me to worship and enjoy Him.
Have been crying for the past few days, waiting upon Him for His blessing to say goodbye and also thinking and talking through with the worship pastor and my husband. It is sad but at the same time thinking about leaving the ministry, I felt there's peace. At the back of my mind, there's a message that says "yes, you may think your calling and passion is in worship but when serving has no more joy due to the issues you are facing and now it may become something you are clinging to which is not healthy when you should be clinging on to GOD. Let go and let GOD heal and restore you first. Rest in Him. He is still on the throne."
There are many other areas in GOD's kingdom that I can serve Him in and am asking the LORD to show me after my rest because there are wounds and pains that need healing and I need recharging before another new journey. Now I understand what it is to be hurt serving GOD but whenever I get hurt I also remind myself of what Christ has gone through for me and tell myself it is ok Irene, it is ok. My heart is still painful but I believe GOD will touch and heal me and restore me in time for my next journey with Him. In the meantime, rest and continue to study His Word and abide in Him.
"And Samuel said, Hath the LORD as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices, as in obeying the voice of the LORD? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams." I Sam 15:22
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